February is coming to a close this evening, and I have not blogged...because I genuinely did not have anything to report. Until now.
Justin has been working at his job for a few weeks now, working for a security company. Trying to balance it around his school schedule has not been easy. They are requiring him to work many midnight shifts, and we both have not been too fond of that. So, hopefully things progress for him in the work situation, because he's already starting to feel overwhelmed. We are blessed and excited that he found work though!
I still have no job. BUST. It's been a frustrating two months since we've been here. But, it's actually been frustrating since I graduated college. And that's been almost a year. I thought once I had my Bachelor's, things would magically fall into place, and I'd automatically start that "big people" job I've always wanted. Although grateful for my opportunities over the years, I've grown tired of odd-part-time-jobs that last for less than a year. I really would like to start a career and grow into its relationships. I have so much to offer!!!! aughhhhh. Ok, end of rant. :) Today I spent a lot of time praying and pouring my heart out to God about my situation. I asked him to take control, because I'm too tired to do it anymore. He answered. :)
Justin came home and said he had been doing a lot of thinking. He says that seldomly, so I know he meant business. We sat in the kitchen and talked. We agreed that this is not the right time for us to buy a house, simply because I am not finding the caliber of jobs that would allow for it. If I could teach, it would work...but it's mid-schoolyear. So as an alternative (a MUCH less stressful, more enjoyable one), we are postponing our house hunt. I can start any job I want, without worrying if it will pay enough to qualify for a home loan. We don't need that kind of space anyway, because kids are not coming for another good couple of years. Justin's in school and enjoying this new life out of the army, and kids can come when he graduates. I will use this time to find something else to do. I'm looking into graduate programs now, and that excites me. In a few months, we'll move into a rental home. And hey, that's ok. :)
We're both still really young, and things do not need to happen all at once. Stupid of me to think that they did! I'm glad Justin and I are so close to be able to talk through these decisions together. He blesses me, and I'm thrilled to be his wife.
It is obvious that God has been working in both of us lately to bring us to this smart, sensible conclusion. Tonight we ate dinner with a calm in our hearts, and a huge sense of relief. Excited to continue to see God work!
